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  -Tuesday, August 22, 2006-
Kumuha nanaman ako ng bato na ipinukpok ko sa sarili kong ulo.

problemado si Din-dinwhy? why? why? why on earth do i always get myself in trouble? i haven't seen Asm. for more than a month, because she was busy trying to finish her OJT.. after more than 2 weeks of not even talking to her on the phone... we finally had a chat.. and she had this problematic voice.. and started blattering about this fund raising thing... and since i hate it when people starts to blatter about things that i really don't understand (since i didn't do my OJT where she did hers.. and the fund raising thing is for that org.) specially when they go, "i don't have the time but it's really for a good cause.. and they really need the money and you know.. you don't seem to be that busy.." when what they really want to tell you is, "will you do the all the work and will you let me get all the credit and since it's for a good cause i know you'll say yes" and since i am what i am.. i said, "okei, i'll organize it.. don't worry". YEAH, dammit! stupid me! i haven't even organized one birthday party by myself in my entire life.. go figure if i can actually organize a friggin' fund raising anything! what the hell was i thinking?! tomorrow, i'm meeting up with her and some other people to finalize things. perhaps, i could still go "i back out" on the thing. what do you guys think?

talagang problemado na si Din-din, oh..you see, the problem is people expect too much from me, they think i'm this superwoman who can do everything and do it GOOD. i know i should be flattered and all but sometimes kasi, it's tiring na din. i feel so pressured. at times, i don't even know if i really did a good job or if they are just saying it because i was the one who did it and since they're so convince that i'm really THAT good, prejudice comes in. minsan nga, i find myself wondering on what's worst? be continuously compared (the bad way, you get me? like, "why can't you be like him?" or "how come he could do it and you can't?") to my oldest brother or have people think that i'm as good as him? i don't know. i'm thankful that no one actually compared me to him, the bad way, i mean. i think people are weird. (and i guess it's okei, since most people think I'M weird. hehehe.) they continue thinking that i am as good as my brother, when the fact is, i'm 21 and i still have 2 more years before i get my hands on my overdue college diploma AND i have not done anything that BIG great.. yet. yes, i said "yet", because eversince i was a lil kid, i have always known that i was born to do great things and someday, i will. most of you are probably wondering what the hell did my brother do at ganon kahirap na magiging kasing galing nya ako? if you're from Region V (lalo na sa tabi-tabi ng bicol) or familiar with the DOH cirlce.. i'm sure you've heard of Dr. Edgardo Sarmiento, well, that's him.. he's my oldest brother, at age 48...
  • he is the Chief of Sanitarium II
  • he has a BSN degree, or what ever you call the degree you need to be able to teach nursing in the universities.. i've been told kasi that the diploma you need to be able to teach and the diploma to be a registered nurse are two different diplomas. i'm not sure though.
  • he is a registered nurse
  • he is an opthalmologist
  • he's one of those health emergency management staff; a project of the DOH -with support from the world health organization.
  • and some more stuffs i don't know about.
i mean how do you get to be like that? i think i'm the only person who thinks that i can't do what he did, that no matter how hard i try i can't be like him. (i'm being realistic, people!)
people think that...
  • since he's the oldest and i'm the youngest..
  • he likes doing things for free and i like doing it too (specially if i'm not having those nervous-slash-inferiority complex attacks, like now) ... just for the sake of helping others
  • we both think that principles, ethics and integrity (ang pag-kaka-iba?) are more important than money... to never do anything for the sake of money, alone. it should always be about something else and the money. hehehe.
  • plus the fact that i'm the first italian-born in the family,
  • i'm the daughter of the first & last president of the whole filipino community in milan,
  • that my uncle & my godfather is a genius (ang mga pamahiin nga naman ng mga nakaka-tanda, tsk.. ako tuloy ang napapa-hamak. tsk. tsk. )
  • that compared to most filipinos/filipinas who after living in the philippines for years decided to live here, i am still not pregnant and i am still at school
  • i'm the most open minded person they know. (and i know too. hehehe.)
  • they're also "amazed" that if my 15 year old cousin comes to me to talk about her sex life, i'd tell her to first -talk to her OB and ask for birth control pills, second -to always use protection and scare her to death about HIV and AIDS, then -to think about it 100 times then to re-think it over again then decide if she really want to get that intimate with her boy friend and to do what she thinks, she should; instead of doing a "cermon" and find her and her boyfriend doing it in a strange place (like the park) and see her tummy blown up within 3 months.
  • and more other stuffs that i can't think of right now
they think that i can do what he did and still do. that i can be as great as he is. but i doubt it. i don't have the guts. still sometimes, its nice to know that people think i'm this great person and that i can do everything but oftentimes, it's also scary... what if i don't make it? what if i can't achieve half of what he did and of what he is? i admire him, not only for the achivements but especially for how he is and how he treats other people. bata pa ako, idol ko na sya. hehehe. by the way, no, he's not filthy rich, not even close. His children go to "normal" schools. my brother's sister-in-law (i used my brother's sister-in-law only because my sister-in-law's sister sounds.. umm.. confusing?) is actually paying for one of my niece college education. he never did it for the money. minsan, ang bina-bayad sa kanya ng mga pashente nya, buhay na manok o kaya mga gulay-gulay.. na pag-katapos ng operahan at gamutan eh ipapakain din nya sa mga pashente.. hehehe. kaya sobrang resptektado at mahal na mahal sya ng mga ka-trabaho at pashente nya, kaya syempre mahal na mahal din nila pamilya ni Doc Ed. at kaya din nung tumigil kami sa bicol last october, alagang-alaga kami.. hahaha. he's working for the DOH since he passed the board exam and became a registered nurse, so that he could study more for "free". its not like he really studied for free.. it was the government who paid.. then he had to work for the government for a period of time... without having a choice.. you know.. the usual bureaucracy stuffs that i know nothing about. so yeah, they're not rich.. i mean how do get rich working for the government without being corrupt?

okei gotta go and think of something on how i can "pull" myself out of that fund raising thing.

p.s.
i know it is for a good cause, and that those kids really do need the money.. but i REALLY don't think i can make it this time...














...unless you volunteer to do the job for me and let me get all the credit.

happy wednesday, everyone!

signed,
who deemed @ 10:30 PM








  -Wednesday, August 16, 2006-
Nalalapit na ang pag-tatapos...

...hindi nang mundo or ng paborito nyong tele-novela, kundi ng bakasyon.

at ibig sabihin nito ay mag-papasukan na naman, balik eskwela at mega-puyatan na.
kaya nga nilulubos ko na.. lahat na nang ma-tripan na gawin.. gina-gawa ko na.. nabibilang na ang araw... huhuhu!

nga pala, remember the world wide chat chuva with South Border? hindi ako naka-sali! hahaha! ang bagal kasi nung nag-visit sa akin na ophthalmologist.. pinag-tripan ata ako eh.. ni-hindi man lang ako pinabasa, nung ano ba tawag dun, chart? basta yung may mga letters.. hehehe.. grabe.. may pinatak lang sa mata ko tapos sinilip lang yung mata ko.. pero sobrang kupad nya, around 2 pm na nga ako nakarating dito sa bahay... at ginutom nya ako.. hahaha!

anyway, daphne (SB street team leader, Phil. chapter) [sumali kayo sa street team, okei?] mega-promote pa rin talaga eh noh? hehehe. going back kay daphne, pinasa nya sa'kin yung kopya ng chat nila.. and damn.. the chat was crazy.. and the chatters?? crazier! meron pa isa na malakas ang loob na nag-tanong kay duncan kung ano reaction nya regarding the erik-ruffa mae thing.. oh di ba ang tapang!? hehehe.


oh sya sige na po.. at wala na namang matinong pumapasok sa utak ko para ma-iblog.. itu-tulog ko muna at baka sakaling may umilaw na bumbilya. hehehe.

maitanong ko lang pala.. bakit wala akong ma-hunting na pinoy na nag-blo-blog dito sa italia? hhmmm.. meron ba kayo kilala?


have a fab. thursday, everyone!
*muah* *muah*

signed,
who deemed @ 11:05 PM

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  -Saturday, August 12, 2006-
I wanna grow old with you.

I pay very little regard...
to what any young person says on the subject of marriage.
If they profess a disinclination for it,
I only set it down that they have not yet seen the right person.
-Jane Austen, English novelist (1775 - 1817)


nanonood ako ng homeboy kagabi, sabi doon ang mga nag-papakasal daw ngayon na mga pinay (at pinoy) ay age ranging from 21-24. ako naman syempre todo "hu-watt??".. napapag-iwanan na ba ako? hahaha! pero hinde eh.. isip bata pa naman talaga ako eh. kaya lang napa-isip din ako... naalala ko na halos lahat [...]
and by lahat i mean, tipong 76% ng mga dati kong schoolmate eh mga nasa long-term relationship na, atleast 3 years na silang steady with their partners & 15% sa kanila eh either may anak na or may asawa or may asawa't anak na. lately lang one of my closest friend in highschool got married at the age of 21 (she turned 21 last january lang.) at yung natitirang percentage??... yun dun po kasali ang inyong lingkod.


anyway, mabalik tayo dun sa naalala ko.. naalala ko nga na parang napag-iwanan na kaming 19%... hehehe. ang totoong tanong ko...

"kami (talagang nandamay noh?) ba eh talagang napapag-iwanan na or sila lang yung mga nag-mamadali?"


para sa'kin, syempre sila yung nag-mamadali noh! ako kasi, kung sakali man, i see myself tying the knot when i'm 26-27... because that's the age i want to have kids (kung sakali man, ulit). kung tinatanong mo, kung magpapa-kasal ako dahil lang sa mga magiging anak, ang sagot, Oo. ibig kong sabihin kung sa palagay ko hindi pa ako ready para sa kasal pero mag-kaka-anak na ako, syempre, kahit hindi ka ready, dapat kayanin mo, ayaw ko kasi ng hindi kasal pag-may anak na.. mahirap, nakikita ko na kasi sa mga kalapit(?) ko dito ang problema at hindi ka naman siguro mag-kaka-anak sa tao na hindi mo mahal, di ba? sa totoo lang kasi, matagal ng alam ng mga nakaka-kilala sa'kin (kahit ng mga parents ko) na mas gusto ko yung live-in muna bago kasal-kasal... mahirap naman kasi yung susugod ka agad sa kasalan, para kang susugod sa gera nang walang armas at hindi kakilala kung sino ang kalaban at kung para saan ang pinag-lalaban mo, sabi nga nila ang kasal hindi parang kanin na mainit na pag-napaso ka pede mo iluwa(?) (naks! hahaha!). and i'm glad na naintindihan yun ng parents ko. siguro dahil na din sa sila matagal din na nag-live-in muna (more than 10 years) before nag-pakasal. ako kasi, naniniwala na hindi mo makikila ang isang tao ng totoong-totoo unless, naka-sama mo na sya sa bahay. karamihan kasi ng mga tao iba sa bahay. mahirap naman di ba yung kung kelan kasal na kayo eh, saka mo pa malalaman na ganon pala sya, na ganon pala sya sa bahay... eh pano kung hindi kayo mag-kasundo? mag-titig-isa kayo ng bahay?

para sa'kin 2 months of living under the same roof wins over 3 years of going steady as a couple.


and yes, i am in favour of premarital sex, but this is another entry story.

nung nandito pa kasi si papà, ugali na namin yung pag-gabi after dinner, lumabas sa may terrace (lalo na pag-summer kasi sa labas medyo mahangin) to talk about everything. naalala ko yung one time na we were talking [...]

papà: pag-hindi ka nag-bago, mag-kakaroon ka ng 27 o kaya 30 pa na alagang pusa.

me:
ha? bat naman pusa pa?? aso na lang.. tagal na 'ko nag-papabili sa'yo eh.
(hindi ba daw ako mag-worry sa quantity ng pusa? hehehe!)

papà:
hahaha! ang aso sa may mga pamilya lang.. sa may mga anak.


me:
(biglang na gets ang ibig sabihin ni fader dear!) yay! basta ako aso ang bibilhin ko.. ayaw ko ng pusa. (sabay belat kay papà!)


papà:
hindi nga seryoso na.. hindi ka ba natatakot tumandang mag-isa?


me:
(shrugged then said) wala eh.. ala nga namang mamilit ako, di ba?


papà:
baka naman may inaantay ka pa na gustong balikan?
(ibang story na ulit ito.. sa'ka ko na ikwento)

me:
hindi... wala eh... hindi pa ngayon yung tamang oras.. hindi pa ako ready sa commitment.. wala pa yung
best-friend material.
  • [ang isa sa mga itinuro sa akin ni papà, dapat ang pipiliin mo para maging life time partner (or papa-kasalan) mo hindi yung basta mahal mo lang, dapat sya yung alam mong kahit wala na yung "in-love" factor, wala na yung tipong "we're still in high school" passion, okei lang kayong dalawa... kasi pag-tumagal na.. pag-matanda na kayo, it's no longer about the being "in-love" or the passion.. pag-tumagal na daw kasi para na kayong mag-kapatid... mag-best friend]
papà: eh pano mo makikita kung nakakulong ka lang dyan sa mundo mo?

me:
ala nga naman ako pa ang mag-hanap sa kanya noh?


papà:
'bat naman hindi? eh, hindi ka rin naman naniniwala sa ligaw-ligaw eh.


me:
uy! ang cheap ko naman nun di ba? hahaha!
(of course, i was just joking)

papà:
eh pano naman ikaw na ang hinahanap, nag-tatago ka naman.


me:
hahaha! hindi naman sila ang humahanap eh.. yung magulang nila.. hahaha!


papà:
ay naku! basta sina-sabi ko sayo, pag-ikaw 30 na at single ka pa din.. ipapamigay na kita, usapan yan ah?


me:
ibugaw ba ako? sumbong kita kina tito eh. hahaha! pano? ibibili mo na ako ng aso?


papà:
sige, promise, after 2 years. (
dapat ngayong year na ito na ako mag-kaka-aso eh)


yes. me & papà. we used to talk that way. God, i miss my papà.


bakit single pa rin ako? "kasi wala pa eh... hindi pa ngayon yung tamang oras.. hindi pa ako ready sa commitment.. wala pa yung best-friend material." hehehe.. sa totoo lang, mas gusto kong isipin na wala pang "nabubulag", na walang pang "nag-kakamali", na wala pang nag-kaka-gusto. sa ganong paraan kasi, hindi sarili ko ang sisisihin ko, di ba? hindi ako palaging mag-iisip kung ano nga bang kina-katakot ko sa pag-ko-commit? sa pag-pasok sa isang relasyon? kung bakit sa edad kong ito eh mas gusto ko pa ding maging single? ano nga bang kina-tatakutan ko? san nga ba ako nag-hahandang maging handa?

anyway, one last question.. do you wanna grow old with me, best friend?


edited on Aug. 20, 2006. if you want to listen to "I wanna grow old with you", please click here. pinag-pawisan ako sa tagalog, hahaha!

signed,
who deemed @ 6:39 PM

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  -Thursday, August 10, 2006-
SOUTH BORDER STREET TEAM.

oh, para maiba naman (hahaha!) ito muna ang ipo-post ko.. hinde sa totoo lang i can't think of anything to post (wala sa mood, ika nga) and because i am (of course) the sb team leader for the EU (European Union) chapter. by the way, myfilehut.com is down for maintenance... so no twinkle, twinkle little star for the meantime.. hehehe.

anyway, SOUTH BORDER STREET TEAM is composed of volunteer fans and friends who help promote South Border all over the world, the teams already exist in Japan, Malaysia, Switzerland, Ireland, Belgium, Germany, London, Australia, Italy, Spain, Malaysia, South Korea, Thailand, United Arab Emirates, Canada, the U.S.A. and the Philippines. Being a part of the Street Team is being part of South Border's dreams. We are all here to spread the word to the world that great music can also come from great Asian talents and SB is just the group to bring it in!

We've started to recruit members for the first SOUTH BORDER Street Team and we have already set up an official website (www.thesbstreetteam.com) for all SB Street Team members to enjoy.

By joining, we'll keep you posted on all of SB's gigs as well as discounts on tickets and merchandise. This is also a great way of meeting fellow SB fanatics.

Street Team Members can enjoy the following:

- complimentary tickets (limited)
- discounted tickets
- occasional get-together with South Border and crew
- join regular forum and chat sessions with South Border
- once or twice a year we will choose lucky street team members to join the concert tours
- discounts on merchandise and CD's
- AND A LOT MORE!

We are open to your suggestions as well.

Let's keep the SB Street Team family growing.
For all those who already joined, THANK YOU for the support!!


Please spread the word to all your family & friends, around the world!


P.S.
I've heard that Australia and Los Angeles is pretty much closed for new members, so hurry up!

signed,
who deemed @ 1:43 PM

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  -Friday, August 04, 2006-
I've got mail.


i received this mail with lotsa catalog 1st week of july.. i was planning to go.. i even got invited by a friend (with her family) to go and spend with them atleast 2 or 3 days at disneyland paris and a week at their rest house in sicilia. as stupid as it may sound, i said "no, thank you". ewan ko ba.. i wanted to go.. kaso it didn't feel right.. parang mali.. alam kong hindi din ako mag-eenjoy, pati bakasyon nila masisira ko.. kasi sa october pa ang babang luksa.. everyone told me it was okay, even my mum told me to go. but it just didn't feel right. next year na lang ako babawe at mag-hahanap ng mga pedeng mahila! hehehe.

this image ruined my cinderella.



just look at the freaking picture.


have a great weekend everyone!
*muah* *muah*

_____________________________
yur supir iro's words of wishdoom:

It's just human. We all have the jungle inside of us.
We all have wants and needs and desires, strange as they may seem.
If you stop to think about it, we're all pretty creative, cooking up all these fantasies.
It's like a kind of poetry.
-Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider

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the fool's note:

for the month of August 2006:
South Border will be performing at Bagaberde Grill & Bar.
(bayaran kaya ako ng Bagaberde para sa publicity? hahaha!)

every TUESDAYs at Bagaberde PASIG and every WEDNESDAY at Bagaberde ROXAS Blvd. except the 16th.



the SB street team



signed,
who deemed @ 6:57 PM

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  -Tuesday, August 01, 2006-
I support Pilipinas around the world.

edited 3rd of August, 2006 at 12.06 pm. 'cause i found mimi's site.
Mimi 4 governor.

i woke up too early this morning 'cause i was supposed to go some place but it was raining hard, so i decided to go on thursday instead. anyway, i couldn't go back to sleep anymore so i did my blog hopping and fell off this blog and read about this:


Pinay ex-porn star wants to be Nevada gov

A Filipina immigrant to the United States who has appeared in American porn films may yet bring pride to the Philippines — if she wins in the gubernatorial elections on Aug. 15 in Nevada.

Melody Damayo, who is better known by her “nom de porn, Mimi Miyagi,” filed her certificate as a Republican gubernatorial candidate in the state of Nevada on May 12.

In her own website, Damayo listed “Filipino” as her “ethnicity” and indicated her eye color as brown, hair as black, and 5’3″ in height. She also indicated her body measurements as 36 DD-23-35. She, however, admitted she had 32-B as her “natural bust” measurement. She admitted that she had several surgeries to increase her natural “B” cup breasts to “DD” size.

The second of four children of immigrant parents Mike Ariesgado and Luz Damayo, Damayo was described in one website as “something of a prodigy.” She supposedly spent her childhood studying piano and dreaming of becoming an Olympic gymnast.

She began her career in adult films after she answered an ad for nude models. When she first started out in the industry, she claimed to be ethnic Japanese because of her facial features, but was repeatedly told that there just wasn’t a market for Asian adult stars. But she was determined and refused to give up, “becoming quite popular for her abilities to take well-endowed men during anal scenes, as well as for her unusually long tongue. She was also building a fan base due to her lesbian scenes.”


and since i support South Border like a madwoman, even if i don't really know how good this girl is on doing her job, i will still support her and wish that she wins the election .

MAY MEME GALING KAY tita BING

six?? wow, this is going to be HARD! people usually describe me as complicated, suplada and weird. anyway, going on...

Six Weird Things About Me:
  1. i put the milk first, then the cereal.
  2. ako din, i can't sleep without the tv or the radio turned on and hugging a pillow.
  3. i don't talk or mingle with people i don't like.
  4. i was born daydreaming.
  5. if everyone else is going right, you'll find me going left. mainly because i don't like crowded places.
  6. i can go for hours without talking to anybody.
passing it to... uumm...
      • to anyone who wants to go meme.
_____________
yur supir iro's words of wishdoom:
Only the curious will learn and only the resolute overcome the obstacles to learning. The quest quotient has always excited me more than the intelligence quotient.
-Eugene S. Wilson
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the fool's note:

the SB street team

signed,
who deemed @ 2:09 PM

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